A New Look

the curtains of time
have hidden my
past from you, but
a legacy of truth
offers you the currency
you need to buy new ones.

2Feb13

Holes

dreams shelter me
from the horrors of the day,
in which reality
burns holes of depression
into the rites and
rituals that dictate my
meaningless life.
2Feb13

Silent Cries

a light sprinkle of

rain-like recollections

puddles into my thoughts

and the grimace of

pain returns to my

consciousness and seeps

into the nerves of my

eyes as tears hold back

a stream of silent cries.

2Feb13

the cup from which
we both have sipped
each others love binds
us together like no
other force could do;
more than sickness...
more than health...
more than friendship...
we dwell inside the
essence of our spirits,

a life force that cuts
like a diamond
on our fingers wear;
a mutual satisfaction
that transcends a
normal love, is held in
an eternal jar of
awareness...  we are


never too far away
from the loving grace
bestowed on us
from high above.


1Feb13

my heart pumps your life

out of my mind with each

new breath of freedom that

releases me to be controlled

by another who loves me more.

1Feb13

my love for you diminishes with
each moment of silence experienced
during the birth of our divorce,
as if it were no longer yesterday, but
a pending memory for tomorrow.

1Feb13

On Having a Sentinel Node Biopsy Recently

haunting memories of you
glide past my consciousness,
a futile attempt at rationality;
bolts of pain...
increasing in intensity
travel sideways through nerves
awkwardly attempting
to seduce the onslaught;
cheap thrills and rushes
form patterns of non-compliance
lying on the hospital floor
after nuclear medicine
injected blue dyes into my foot.

1Feb13

Our Affair

flannel sheets warm outside
sensuous kisses warm inside
passions build silently
legs and thighs push through
heat travels down our corridors
sweet softness tingles
hands slide and glide
fingers penetrate from behind
others slide down and in between
wetness spills out
we become electrified
and nothing else matters but the moment
an invasion of senses
a complete surrender
movements in unison
automatic
without choreography...
seductive songs surround us
a heated thin veil of passion
uncontrollable yet directed and targeted
leading us both into harm's way...
the earth beneath us
shatters and shutters
our climax strong and resolute
like the firing of water hoses
to extinguish our blazing fires.

21Jan13

For Decades

for decades we have
breathed in the air of freedom,
pausing briefly
a few times
to dispel rumors
of disunity;
for decades we have
pacified our enemies
until lies
and promises of lies
has rebuilt
our broken faith;
for decades we have
offered charity and
sympathy
to the rest of the world,
ignoring
our needs at home;
for decades we have
contradicted ourselves
and our beliefs
to feed the furnaces
of wealth,
greed,
and legal manipulations.

21Jan13

UNTIL THEN . . .

I am what I am
or came to be,
from those of
who I was once,
pushed through
the birth womb;

I was anointed
with the blood
of my ancestry
whose claim on me
only recently realized,
yet the shadows
and seeds of doubt
are embedded within
by the DNA strands
that encase me in
the cocoon of life;

My tears and fears
blur a vision of  faith,
but do not leave despair
as I believe what
I believe as truth,
leaving my heart
and mind to
function independently
of other influences;

My tongue slashes
and lashes out at
those betrayed by
greed and control
while maintaining
a balanced etiquette;

I see not what you see
nor will I ever see
that which you see
and no longer worry,
as that is simply
the way it should be,
but still live with shame
and the blame you
set forth upon me;


All my inabilities
harden all my outlooks,
on all horizons while
appreciating the beauty
with which I have been
entrusted and from which
I will surely die one day
and finally cease to be
all that I am or had become.

20Jan13