Just Normal Again

a rain filled sky appears outside

my windows and above my head,

as I dwell on the loneliness I feel

for being alive again today as I

did yesterday and the day before

yesterday as best as I can remember;

but, it is no crime to feel this way

nor is it wrong to feel this way

I suppose as it happens to me all

the time of late, yet more recently

than ever before does it arrive in

me just as the morning begins

and not in my sleep as it used to,

entering my dreams and taking

me on journeys never before seen

or experienced and felt as if I had

been awake all the time and was

really enjoying the depression.

20Apr16