Sunday, August 31, 2014

Rest My Soul

To Whom It May Concern is what
will be written on my tombstone,
and I have asked to be buried face down...
but, direction is more of a state-of-mind
than an actual word to be defined; still,
I have a great interest in knowing who
will be my next owner and what exactly
will these entities want me to do?

17May14

Saturday, August 30, 2014

YOU




I have lived my life with
no regrets although some
better choices could have
been made benefited me,
but nonetheless sending
me off into a new direction
from which I would not
return to encountered you.

17May14

Friday, August 29, 2014

Moving Day Again

rain and sunshine fall
on me at the same time
and on the same day of
each week and I have
learned to adjust and adapt
to these circumstances,
but do not understand why;
fortune and misfortune follow
me around like younger siblings
waiting for a chance to enter,
and when property values
soar, I find myself moving
my belongings to a new
location in the hopes that
they will not find me soon.

17May14

Thursday, August 28, 2014

It's Finally Over

we stand on opposite banks of

any river you want to imagine,

be it the Potomac,

the Amazon,

or the Yantzee,

the result is always and

will always be the same:

indifference and incompatibility;

and yet,

we linger on our respective shores

as if the waters will recede and

we can walk across and reunite;

a most unlikely occurrence, but

we stand there all the same.


16May14

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Goodbyes

clouding my vision
are the hurtful
comments you make
like blowing into
a cup of coffee to
cool it off, but,
this time the
obstruction does not
quickly dissolve but
lingers, preventing me
from seeing you at
all and I wish my
temporary blindness
would last long
enough for you to see
yourself out the door.

16May14

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Our Actions

if we have no one close to us,

can we then in turn hurt them,

or does that depend on how the

victim interprets our reckless

actions directed towards them?

16May14

Monday, August 25, 2014

Second Chances




it is no longer sustaining for us to

benefit from the mistakes of others;

so, we must ensure their survival

is questionable in case they

want to make another attempt.


16May14


Sunday, August 24, 2014

It Is What It Is



there is no end to what
our minds can endure
or what they may envision
and yet we use them not
as they were intended
but, as
receptacles instead
for all the
less than positive situation
we witness
in a blatant effort
to pass hatred
along to our brothers.

16May14

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Our Condition

I write no more about
our struggle because
it is depressing and
no solution found,
except to leave which
is not acceptable
with our ages; so,
our new condition
not new at all is
to simply listen and
walk away often so
love can be found
another day when more
pleasant conditions exist.

16May14

Friday, August 22, 2014

The Vision

was her head bowed
from respect or from
being submissive?
we will never know
as she disappeared
from my dreams
just as quick as
she had entered them;
but, left a first impression
that will soon not be forgotten.

16May14

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Natural Nature

the atmosphere cries out
her moisture early every
morning before we awake,
wishing for contagious life
bring through each Spring,
providing constant rebirths,
ignoring those who continue
to poison the precious soil.

14May14

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Conspicuously Consumed

the world blends her coffee bean
and serves it fresh to those who
dare attempt to consume her riches;
on uncharted waters, we set sail
for undiscovered truths, leaving behind
justice and ethics since they require
too much space in water-logged minds
we must inevitably take along with us;
roasted flavors, freshly brewed
permeate from below decks and we
regurgitate so can can consume more;
with no land in sight, we abandon ship
for our new destinations, hoping we
are not debriefed too long once we
have been rescued from the murky
waters, and upon reflect reflection
realize,  it started with our first cup.

14May14

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Reborn

          can there be a cause
          without an effect?
          can there be an up
          without a down or
          an inside without
          an outside one?
          the most simple of
          these questions is
          always mostly confusing
          since we are taught
          death only arrives after birth
          but life lives on once reborn.

          14May14

Monday, August 18, 2014

Roads


roads to anywhere are
always paved with
good intentions; yet,
events unfold in ways
where through ghettos before
the original road returns.

14May14

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Days

it is not tomorrow
or the next day
or the next
with which should concern you
but the totality
of the days
and how you
spent them.

13May14

Saturday, August 16, 2014

On Leaving

smiles, hand shakes, and hugs

greet me at the finish line, but

it is not me but they who have

completed this journey as I

was merely a guide post along

the way, forcing them back to

the middle of the stream in

order for them to finish; but now,

we say no goodbyes and no farewells,

realizing we will never see each

other again more than likely.


13May14

Friday, August 15, 2014

Returning






there was no hero's welcome
when I stepped off the plane
in sixty-nine, but there were
many hateful comments thrown
at me like empty beer cans at
bad singers in the local bar;
still, I made my way through
the trash and slime without
the meds my brothers took,
but to this day do not remember
why I played it out that way.

13May14

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Past Sins

Robin Hood shed no tears
in Nottingham when he,
with swift sword play,
slayed the King's Guard;
but, I suppose I would not
be so cavalier with the life
of another in order to save
my own, especially when
my life is spent believing.

13May14

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

The Stranger

at a distance
I see
I wonder
I begin to hear
yet
it's a long walk there
and my legs
already tired
need mending;
excuses...
are the road
on which
I walk
these days
as
the reasons seem
to
comfort me;
closer
and closer
you come and
become
clearer in my
vision,
but,
I see not
nor
do I want
to see;
I am an
outsider
to this family
and
have grown
comfortable
in my roll;
so,
stay where you
are and
let's
keep
our
distance.

13May14

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Going Steady

within the spirit of the law,
I arrest you and bring you
home to my bed for proper
questioning until the courts
open back up on Monday;
yet, I must release you back
into the custody of your silly
parents until  you can escape
with me again next weekend.

12May14

Monday, August 11, 2014

Dinner Guest




it is not the fat'ed calf that
I want you to cook for me,
but, the fish that lives beneath
your feet as I am a vegetarian
of sorts and red meats leave
me bloated and conspicuously
curious with your motives
and the need for such a feast.

12May14

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Sweet Surrender

out of the blue,
you reach out to me,
and I feel
your grasp touch
the privacy
of my thoughts,

and with its
intimacy,
I am awakened
and
taken forth;
out of the blue,
your tempting lips
kiss me
privately,
but,
the response is
shock,
not excitement,
and the
hesitation belongs
in the moment
of
complete surrender
and
capitulation
to your will.

12May14

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Spinning Fan

mesmerized by the whirling fan,
I sit beneath the cool breeze
and attempt to seed each blade
as a test for my aging eyes and
mental concentration, trying to
focus like being at a county fair
watching the card person hands;
and, knowing it is an illusion,
I am still fascinated by the
curious minds of both the elderly
as well as the young, attempting
to guess the correct location, but,
this damn spinning fan keeps
getting all of my damned attention.

12May14

Friday, August 8, 2014

Circus Clowns

amid the pomp and ceremony
of Spring lies all creatures
great, small, and in between
whose lives depend upon
its masters tending properly
that which has been given,
yet, it is doubtful said care
will actually care at all
as they stroll down the
promenade caring more about
the spectacle created than
if it is going to rain this year.

12May14

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Hidden

inside my core
not so deep,
I suppose,
is the repository
for all my demons,
but I cannot
afford a gate keeper,
so there is
no telling
how long
they will remain,
where placed
years ago
when needing a
new identity.

11May14

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Touch Me

there is no touch
that I could feel
which would bring
you back to me, so
why do I search for
one so desperately
each time I am alone?

11May14

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Decay

my thoughts will decay
just as my body, but I
am not sure which will
go first, so I write as often
as I can even though
there is no real purpose.

11MaY14

Monday, August 4, 2014

Speaking to Sleep



dawn always seems to
bring us home and I
speak not of the person;
at least it is not my intent,
so when I sleep, I sleep
deep and well into the truth
of why I am so tired, yet
always before, I drift away
I have my little excursions
into different worlds of
mental foreplay, speaking
all those phrases that are
not allowed during the day.

11May14

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Sleep On It




always have I felt a
little strange when
someone suggests that
I sleep on this or that,
because when I sleep,
I dream and
when I dream, my
thoughts tend to go
into a perverse
sexual arena of adult
exploitation from
which I awake, always
needing to shower.

11May14


Saturday, August 2, 2014

The Gardener

I have a tendency to
tend mental gardens
before tending others
in the hopes that
all the others
will follow suit,
but they never do,
and I always
seem to wonder
or hope (a better word)
that one day
a change will take place
and all my meddling
will be worth it.

11May14

Friday, August 1, 2014

Peculiar

there is a soul inside
my heart or perhaps
the reverse I suspect,
since my feelings
have never been the same
as my thoughts have been
ever since I
started to notice that
I was behaving in a
most peculiar way.

11May14