Credit Card Blues

time leaves us wondering in
unfettered confusion,
pointing the way
where there is no way,
follow this truth when
there is no truth to follow,
listen to the truth
but no truth exists...
we live in the cul-de-sac
of U turns,
missed opportunities,
lost beliefs and
misinformed expectations,
wishing our lives pointed in
some direction - somewhere,
purpose and meaning
juxtaposed with a life of
rewarded satisfactions...
instead, we find non-disclosures
legal remedies that make
no sense, revealing nothing
for which we paid...
life on a plastic card that has
slipped through our fingers.

July 27, 2025

First Time

memories of yesterday linger
overflowing my mind
weakening resistance of desire,
wondering, somewhat hoping
if these feelings will survive,
hidden in mental closets
away from the prying eyes
of a partner whose anger at
my proclivities destroy...
we see each other differently
years pass by unnoticed,
ignoring the fantasies 
growing inside me - a need
beyond all others to feel...
to experience...  to open 
myself up to his thrusts
inside me now...   
deeper and deeper,
slurping hot oil dripping
down my thighs...
an invitation like no other
a prize for both,
squeezing down hard
squirting - fulfilled
his sac beating against my
shivering cheeks as if 
they were cold - goosebumps
forming and disappearing,
lost in sensation...
accomplished anxiety
bucking its way to a
relaxing completion,
hoping the sexual aromas
will last forever as the first
time is always the best.

July 26, 2025