If Only I Could Have

She stood there like light coming in from a window,

bold and bright, sunny and alive,

refreshingly smooth and different;

She was more beautiful that I had remembered

and looked at me scared when our eyes met,

wondering in was still ok to be friendly;

If I could, I would have taken her in my arms;

If I could, I would have kissed her;

If I could, I would have been who she wanted me to be;

If I could, I would have . . .

But, I was just as nervous as she;

If only I could have.