A Sinner's Tale

in the quiet, reflective mode
of one's retirement, I see a
backwards glance of my life
and wonder if I had performed
a little differently, how it my
life would have been today;
and, while a meditative stare
like that denotes regret, I have
come to realize my life has been
lived exactly as it should have
been and would have been, if
a "do over" had been granted;
and, in that flash of insight, that
ultimate enlightenment, I see
a certain je ne sais quoi to the
whole relative bit while trying
to focus on the here and now.