Melancholy

without the slightest provocation
a feeling of lifelessness permeates
the body and into the soul...
a feeling of worthlessness and
self-doubts.... purposelessness,
as if there is no reason to exist,
and the family and friends who
ae surrounding my environment
offer no encouragement or even
give the impression that they care;
all tasks are overwhelming and
sleep becomes the easy out...
the way to pass the day, rather
than even trying to contribute but
when you do - all efforts are in
a state of flux, turmoil, and there
is no reason to make the transition,
since no matter what one does or
what one tries, it is going to fail...
age only makes it worse but there
is hope that death comes early and
puts an end to this state of depression.

April 3, 2024