1998 Series - December #1

I.

I read but

do not retain

and I never

really learned

to study and

understand so

this like every

thing else is

coming back

on me and I

get deeper and

deeper into

the hole and

everything 

seems to be

caving in on

 me maybe for

the last time.

II.

how do I teach

myself what I 

need to learn 

and how do I

remember what

I need to know?

It is all a blur as

I feel committed

to this new role.