not too early in the morning I awake
the sun is usually up and behind clouds
my body is already fatigued as if I
needed more than 10 hours sleep...
my eyes hurt and my nose drains and
I feel a tad wobbly when I walk even
though my paces are much slower...
my throat is dry and it is hard to swallow;
moments later the nausea sets in as it
begins to rise in the stomach and then
permeates my entire body... sitting
down to catch my breath and rest is
my only option as I curse the tumors
growing inside of me, wondering if
they have been there a while or if they
are new and fast growing... my future
dims... putting it out of my mind, I try
busying myself with minute tasks that
have no reason to be done today... I
smile at the cat who has come up to
rub against my leg in the hopes I will
pick him up and rub him... and, just
when I bend over, the other two cats
approach wanting the same attention.
July 6, 2023
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