A Baker's Dozen From 1988 - Page 11

1.

will my journey end

in your arms or will

I be abandoned like

so many times before?

January 1988

2.

I see you in my dreams at night

and in my thoughts in the day;

\I am afraid to let you know.

January 1988

3.

beyond your grasp I stand and 

cannot escape my attraction;

carefully my eyes search for any

signs from you, wondering if

yesterday something was missed;

will I ever hold you in my arms and feel

the length of your body against mine?

lend me your heart in case my needs repair,

ask me to care and my feelings will be yours,

sail me away and I'll dream of us only

on paper and not bother you again.

January 1988

4.

I heard you crying and

wanted to comfort you

but when I arrived there

someone got there first.

January 1988

5.

I see her in the bedroom,she 

is familiar with it, sitting on

the bed with her eyes closed;

her hands move to her breasts

cupping them as would a man, the

one she imagines she is with now;

her hands move in between her legs

as she feels him in her...  building a

a desire not felt in a long time,

until she finally cries out with joy;

breaking her trance momentarily

she realizes where she is and

seeing me in the window,

motions for me to enter.

January 1988

6.

she looks at me and says,

"don't be afraid and don't worry 

you cannot wear it out honey."

January 1988

7.

I left you in a hurry

but not as fast as you

when we make love.

January 1988

8.

your hair pulled back and 

in a bun made you look in 

charge of things and someone 

with whom I should not mess.

January 1988

9.

I had a thought or two

the other day and wrote

them down as best I could

remember and as you read 

them aloud and made a face 

I cowered in the corner.

January 1988

10.

once you were gone and

I was by myself, I prayed 

you would not ever return.

January 1988

11.

there was a time when your

feeling did not matter only mine;

there was a time when I grossly

under estimated my need for you;

there was a time when all I wanted

was to be with you instead of being 

alone or being with someone else;

there was a time when I was twenty

and my cage was never rattled and

bird songs I never heard until you;

there was a time when I would run 

faster than the wind if you were to

call, but no more will I wait for you;

January 1988

 

12.

The congregated people

upon his arrival and wanted

to lynch him high when he did.

January 1988

13.

my bedroom light shines

where it is not needed and

rarely gives off enough

light to ever blow a fuse.

January 1988