A Baker's Dozen From 1988 - Page 5

1.

I listed all the reasons why

I cannot continue to live

and they all pertained to a

dual personality and 

lacking listening skills.

March 1988

2.

before I was married

I was mellow when drunk,

but after marriage

was obnoxious and belligerent

and once divorced no

longer needed to become drunk.

March 1988

3.

the lessons we learn

as adults are accepted

easier than when kids.

March 1988

4.

and all the fliers I sent

to potential companions

left me with no more

than large postal bills.

March 1988

5.

yes...  I am married and

neither of us have the guts

to leave each other...

what else is new?

at least I now know that

after twenty years,

what is going on with me.

March 1988

6.

This was the last time as

I had told myself before after

recovering from the hurt;

and, here I go again responding

to whatever urge possesses me.

March 1988

7.

can we become friends and

as we get to know each other,

let our closeness dictate our

direction or must we determine

now all that we will allow?

March 1988

8.

my fleeting image floats into your 

field-of-vision, at a time when it is

 not convenient and that disturbance

prevents us from anything more.

March 1988

9.

I cannot say what it is that I feel,

all I know is that I am attracted...

I need to know more about you

and see if synergy develops...

our curiosities will be answered.

March 1988

10.

I want to have the pleasure of pain

that we knew each other however 

briefly and however intimately

rather than never have experienced

those feelings with you at all.

March 1988

11.

if you don't doubt your 

own feelings then you 

have no reason to believe 

those feelings of mine.

March 1988

12.

can your youth be transferred to me,

your disrespect and irreverence as well?

I once had those feelings I see in you and

outgrew them as I outgrew my responsibilities;

will your youth leave me confused,

realizing I have slowly allowed myself to

be molded into something I dislike?

will you teach me how to reclaim my youth

or will you just tease me with yours?

March 1988

13.

you read all of them for the last two 

years about two thousand of them and

they were all about the same... four or 

five categories done in different styles.

March 1988