A Baker's Dozen From 1988 - Page 8

1.

I wonder if I would have the courage to face

cancer as some that I have read about have...

I wonder if there is a test I don't want to take...

especially since the future is not mine to take.

February 1988

2.

there is no passion between

her and her husband a marriage 

that was arranged out of 

convenience; it seemed to be the 

right thing to do at the time.

February 1988

3.

I can't understand why I allow my 

imagination to get so out of control;

I can't understand why I allow my

dreams to dominate my reality;

I can't understand why I put up with

my emotional "ups" and "downs."

February 1988

4.

the more I do towards achieving good health

the more self-confidence I develop as I begin

to control those feelings that controlled me;

it's a simple matter of taking charge of one's

own life and one's own future if one can.

February 1988

5.

I anxiously await your arrival

knowing that when we do finally

come together, it will be awkward;

it's been so long and we've changed so much,

we're not the same people,

it's possible we won't care for each other anymore,

it's possible we won't know each other anymore,

even though some of this was our intention.

February 1988

6.

you cannot buy my love nor demand

that someone give you their love;

\life is open to the highest bidder

and we rent out lives out accordingly;

does any of us really know about attraction?

we are chosen on appearances,

finding out later our choice was bad,

our sense of duty holds us together until

it's too late to do anything else.

February 1988

7.

one day I'll be old and gone

and I have no idea if you're

really interested in me or not.

February 1988

8.

we stand inside the doorway of our false 

assumptions never quite understanding 

why our loved ones pay us no attention;

our little worlds are so fragile and it's so 

important to justify our viewpoints that we 

fail to recognize how that pushes others away;

no one learns to listen by talking yet we all

seem to try to make our points first and we doubt all

knowing we need something in which to believe.

February 1988

9.

if I salute your flag do I also

have to accept your beliefs or

am I free to pick and choose

those parts with which I identify?

February 1988

10.

the pounding resounding in my 

head across my forehead, behind 

and underneath my eyes, a nauseous 

sensation once I stand, a steady pain 

navigates inside and around my head...

a pounding resounding surrounding.

February 1988

11.

evenings are spent with unsalted

non buttered popcorn... two cups worth,

no more and certainly no less, and

a one calorie pop to wash it down;

the blandness of our diet

mimics our lives and the

wisdom between our ears

makes it easier to swallow.

February 1988

12.

our comments are based 

upon what we have heard 

and if they seem a little 

unreasonable then maybe 

we didn't have access 

to all the pertinent facts.

garbage in...  garbage out...

February 1988

13.

if we make commitments to worthy goals

knowledge and love lets suppose

will we have the foundations of a successful life

which is nothing more than happiness and

may be achieved with or without education.

February 1988