July 1999 - page 3

1.

believe me when I tell

this as it is the only way

it can be...  unless something

in you changes because

I have changed and all I

can do right now for you

is take what belongs to me

and all the rest is yours.

2.

we laugh and talk now

lettimng each other know

what is on our minds...

and we listen and try to

understand hoiw the other

person feels and sees and

how we need to react to

all the other person says.

3.

there is still a lack of trust

that I feel for you and I

cannot help wondering

if you have a boy friend

and that it is he who calls

at all hours of the night

and you have managed to 

act like you know nothing

whenever it happens now.

4.

it is the fourth of July today

and we have had a weekend off

and have done nothing...

except for the fact that you see

who you want to see when

you want to and do what you

want to as well...  leaving me

to wonder what you really

do on all your days off now.

5.

you have me to pay

your bills while you play around

with who you want to.

6.

you have a chance to be with

me in the mornings before

you go to work but you choose

to sleep instead...  expecting me

to be there for you whenever

it is that you want me there.

7.

there are times when you have

the time to call the stores and

discuss personal issues but you

claim there is no time to call

homee and that leaves me

thinking your intentions are

not as you claim them to be.

8.

my life is composed

of worrying about

what you are doing 

when what I should

be thinking is what

I want to do instead.

9.

you want me to trust you

but you actr like you are

seeing another person and

that it does not bother you

because of the way you claim

that I treat you...  yet you 

would not let me go to the

wedding by myself because

you did not trust me with

my ex wife being present,

and if the truth be known it

was not me that you did 

not trust but it was yourself.

10.

where did we go wrong

what did we do... to make

our lives this way and

does it really matter that

you are having an affair

as long as we have sex

and you don't give me AIDS?

is this how our marriage

has ended up or is it just

the way it is with a woman

who acts like you act?