October 1999 - page 2

1.

I see a wild beast in my head

and I possessn its body...

good or bad...  I see a Native 

American inside of me and

wonder what his eyes reveal.

2.

come to me my beauty

let us make our marriage

sacred so that no man 

will cast any doubt on the

everylasting quality of

our soon to be union. 

3.
I go to church and look

forward to every Sunday

because I am a spiritual

wasteland I believe...

it is the only day of the

week that I feel comfortable

with myself and others.

4.
I am rested

I am invigorated

with new life

and renewed energy

so that my week

will have purpose

and be meaningful

for us both.

5.
I want to see God

I want to be with God

I want to have God's love

and His caring so

that my life will have

purpose and results.

6.
my cat has

unconditional

love for me

as I would hope

I have for you.

7.
give me the courage and the

determination and the trust

to live my life according to

your will without the slightest

doubt that I will be looked after.

8.

I have no beginning...  no end and

I am not a circle or a ray of light...

I have no past and no future,

no hesitation...  no doubts...  I am

love and I am spread throughout.

9.

I have my dreams and my fantasies

to see me through my life...  what do

I need reality for when reality is a 

concept that control be controlled.

10.

I live in a deep forest inside a deep well

behind a large rock, underneath a warm

blanket of the mind and I nurture myself

as did my mother and the intimacy that

I feel will be contained and self absorbed;

I will live out the remaining days of my

life in a state of alienation for the crimes

I have committed against myself and to

the God to which I have not been able to

accept under the terms set forth in life.