February 1999 - page 3

1.

I sleep with you

by my side and

I am comforted,

at peace as I lay

each night in the

arms of your love.

 

2.

my writing does not flow

like what I have read and

does not incorporate all

the clever references to

all sorts of other things;

my poetry has no rhyme

or stroyline or lesson to

learn, it is just thoughts

and feelimgs about how

I feel most of the time,

so, one could say and 

rightly so, that my poetry

is self-centered and my

words are words of how

I feel...  and all I know.

3.

there is a disturbance

in my mind that flows

like a water fall but

with no place to go.

4.

I wonder what gifts I possess

is what I have been thinking

about recently as I see what

others do and am envious, not

of their talent but with the fact

that they have found their way

5.

I can imagine anything

be anyone in my imagination

or in my dreams or

in my poetry but I choose

to be me andd write about

what I feel, think, and doubt;

I don't imagine anything really

except that my words might 

one day be shared but the

comman person does not

care too much for poetry..

6.

these days are packed full

all spent working productively,

healthy and invigorating,

but it has got to end and with

that comes frustration and

fear and anxiety that there

will be no money coming in.

7.

in a way, I wish we did not

have these expenses, so when

the bottom was again pulled

out from under us there would

be very little to cover...   but,

then what would be the point?

8.

there is little that I need but

there is a lot that you need,

and I have seen already that

when our relationship gets

difficult, you have no concerns

about leaving...  so, what's to 

say you will not do it again

maybe this year or the next...

but the fear of it happening

is always there and is always

perpetuated by your lack of

tolerance with events that

always seem to happening now;

how would you behave if you

were me and I were you?

would you invest in our future

or would you even care?

would you believe in my 

loyalty or would you rely on

the past to predict the future?

and, that is the way it is with

us...  and, frankly I have not 

the first clue as to how to

turn our lives around now.

9.

I miss the excitement of the

type of sex that you want to

make sure I experience when

I open the door to you...  I

would really want you back

and now you say that no only

did you not do it for that reason

but that I cann expect that type

of intensity to continue again.

10.

you sit like a man and I act

like a woman from the point 

of how we feel and show

how much we need each other...  

it is not that eith of us are wrong 

or right in what we want to do...  

it is more of an irony we have

reversed roles, I feel those roles 

will reverse again and you'll 

regret it when that happens.