May 1999 - page 5

1.

she comes in begging

asking for someone

to take care of her

as if is is someone's

obligation to let her

live off another man's

kindness and lust.

2.

her comments are always

the same, "can you help me out,"

spoken in a pittiful voice

hoping someone will

listen to her begging.

3.
the more she tries to

manipulate him the

more he resolves to

pull away from her

and the more she feels

that he has betrayed her.

4.

I see in myself the seeds

to be what someone else

wants but I also see the

need in me to be alone,

not letting anyone but

myself live like I do.

5.
I am not better off today

that I was the day before

and will continue to be

like that until I change

what it is inside me that

makde me feel this way.

6.
you called to let me know

that you would be later and

then you are not late at all,

but more importantly there

was no reason for you to

call at all because we area

sleeping in separate rooms.

7.

if I raised my hand to you I

am sorry but still no harm

came to you...  I am sorry

but still my words were

never heard...  if I raised

my heart to you I am sorry

but it was done out of love.

8.

there seems to be more heavy

people than thin these days,

and age does not seem to bre

a factor at all...  it is sad in a

way that we as a society do

not care that much about 

ourselves and being healthy.

9.

he must show up at McD's

every friday to coffee up and

make his cell phone calls and

I guess I would think that

from his car would be better.

10.

I wonder what will be

our fate but this is not

exactly what I should 

do... accepting that

which I do not agree.