June 1999 - page 4

1.

I accept full responsibility 

for my atgions and will

live with the consequences

and if that means alienations

from family then so be it.

2.

I ask others to fight

my battles and when

I do it make the 

situation worse so

now it is time to take

change of my life.

3.

there will be time passing

for many months before

I let myself join with 

another woman in marriage.

4.

perhaps we have all learned

a valuable lesson from this

unfortunate experience and

if we have then it was worth

the pain that we all endured.

5.

it is obvious that you have

unconditional love inside

of you and show it to me

all the time...  it is now up

to me to trust you more.

6.

it is time for me to get back to

where I was and put my life

back together...  rebuilding it

better than it ever was before,

finally benefitting from the past.

7.

the sun feels good on my shoulders

it warms my new sense of pride

and self esteem...  the sun's warmth

heals the scars that have been

carried many years unattended.

8.

it is necessary to see

the ugliness in one's

self before the positive

can rise up from ashes.

9.

inside our minds are the influences

of our parents, incorporating theirs...

and theirs...  and theirs...  it is up to

each of us to determine those to use.

10.

if I write each day whether it

be positive or negative, I am

still building my ability to

think and use words differently.