June 1999 - page 5

1.

we have

influence

over

each other

using it

adversely.

2.

there will be no more lies

or hidden agendas...  there

will be no more selfishness

or distrust or retaliation...

there will be no more loud

talking or saying words

just to hurt the other person...

there will be a change in

our behaviors regardless

of what we do or not do

because we love each other.

3.

no one sees the pain inside

unless it is shown and if

that is done it is likely to

solicit sympathy which is

saying I cannot do it alone.

4.

out of this tradgedy we all

assume the blame...  we have

grown and learned something

about ourselves...  the question

that must be asked is...  will

all of this change remain?

5.

most of what I perceived

was wrong or incorrect

and now I must learn a

new way to see and it is

believed that when I do

this my life with others

will dramatically improve.

6.

for three months there must

be an improvement and if

there is then we back off on

the medication to see if I

can do it all on my own.

7.

it is just a better way to think

I do believe...  including the

relationship at home which

I thought was unretrievable.

8.

tell me the truth 

not what I want to hear

and I will adjust

my way of thinking to

acommodate the change.

9.

we sleep together again

something I thought

we would never do...

and, it would appear

we are a little bit better

and stronger and closer

than we were before.

10.

you read about the

distortions to see

what I need to do

and I know you

cannot help but think

some pertain to you.